What even is it?
When it comes to the website ,and all its attributed facets such as the channel and twitter come to think on it, I’ve been struggling with somewhat of an identity issue. What are we? What do we do? What are we aiming to do in the future? Really it comes down to “I don’t know”.
I like the idea of having a professional facade, but I feel awkward acting professional. I guess the real issue is my inability to overcome backwardness and at least try to act professional. Its easy to say all you need to do is A) Talk professional and B) Think professional, at the end of the day though talking is hard and thinking outside of the box you’ve assigned yourself to sit in is perplexing at best and downright near impossible at worst.
If I was to change anything at all I’d not do the whole named channel thing, I’d just be a man called Bushcrank making some videos in his spare time about the gaming adventures he and his friends take in their spare time. I’d forego “GamersDare”, I’d do without the MCN YouTube nonsense. The main reason for being “GamersDare” instead of “Bushcrank” was I wanted my friends to feel included in the process, even if all they were doing was playing games. I didn’t want them to feel like I was exploiting their time to create videos, where that notion came from I’ll never know, in actuality they wouldn’t mind because we’d be playing games anyways and the trade-off is I make things interesting. It was also so that my freinds could post videos on the channel as well and add to the variety and frequency of videos, sadly college is a pretty time consuming thing, which I always try to be understanding off for everything.
I suppose I could forget it all now and just go back to basics. The one reason I don’t is the amount of time I’ve already sunk into all of it, which means I’ll sink more time into it now until either A) We do well enough or B) I do give up eventually. There’s also the perceived notion of failure, if I stop the channel stuff it will be one more thing I’ve failed.
So why the essay on what the thought processes behind GamersDare are? Well its a small amount of guilt, for having a website and not using it properly, and as an outlet to explain some of the disappointment I have in some of the choices behind everything. So what does that mean for the future? Who the hell knows. I think this year is the year of Bushcrank and not of GamersDare. I want to build a stronger me and then maybe do the channel stuff afterwards? By my reasoning a better Bushcrank can only improve GamersDare in the long run right?